갑상선기능항진증

 

 

 

                                                                                    벌써 2년이 되어간다

                                                                                    온갖 짜증과 분냄과 울분과

                                                                                    아픔과

                                                                                    알 수 없는 전신의 부종과 고통으로

 

                                                                                    많은 시간들을 힘들게 하고

                                                                                    주변사람을 무안케 하고

                                                                                    자식교육 제대로 못했단 소릴 듣기도 하고

                                                                                    다혈질에 이상한 아이로

                                                                                    보여지던게

 

                                                                                    사고의 후유증이려니 하여

                                                                                    온갖 건강식품으로

                                                                                    보충하여 주면서도

                                                                                    효과없다고 냉대받던

                                                                                    그 시간들이 그냥 모르고 지나다

 

                                                                                    갑자기 심해진 딸아이 두통과 오한

                                                                                    숨쉬기 조차 힘든 시간들

                                                                                    머리카락이 집안을 뒤덮고

                                                                                    한 여름에 추위와 씨름하고

                                                                                    식은땀이 온 몸을 적시며

                                                                                    먹고 또 먹고를 반복하며 해도

                                                                                    일주일에 4kg몸무게가 빠지며

                                                                                    이상증상을 보여

                                                                                    신경과를 찾은게

                                                                                    2년전 여름에 편두통진료를 받으며

                                                                                    검사 수순을 밟고 지나는 단계에서

                                                                                    내분비과로 옮기라는 지시서가 내려지고

 

                                                                                    진단명은 갑상선기능항진증으로...........

 

                                                                                    그게 무언지 몰라서

                                                                                    진료받고 집에와서 인터넷으로 조회해 보니

                                                                                    그동안 울 딸에게서 나온 증상과 똑 같아

                                                                                    맘이 너무도 아팠었다

 

                                                                                    최종검사결과 음식으로 다스리자는

                                                                                    말씀을 듣곤 중간중간 피검사로

                                                                                    확인해오는데

                                                                                    요며칠간은 많이 피곤해서

                                                                                    피검사를 하고서 오늘 확인하러 갔다

 

                                                                                    오늘

                                                                                    아버지하고 진료시간이 같아서

                                                                                    딸만 보내고 결과를 알려달라 했는데

 

                                                                                    놀랍게도 이젠 피검사 없이

                                                                                    몸에 이상만 있을 때 오라고

                                                                                    항진증이 이제는 벗어난것같다고  한다

 

                                                                                    울 딸이 한동안 예수님의 이름으로 치료해주셔요

                                                                                    하면 아멘을 하지 않아서 속이 상하고

                                                                                    그냥 믿고 맏기자 하면

                                                                                    엄만 자기맘 모른다며 울던 딸

                                                                                    치료와 기도는 함께하는 거라고 하면 뾰루뚱하더니

                                                                                    이젠 감사가 모든것을 이기게 함을 좀 알 수 있을려나^^*...

 

                                                                                    좋으신 하나님 감사 합니다

                                                                                    많은 걱정으로

                                                                                    아파했던 시간들인데

                                                                                    이제 놓여나게 하여주시니

                                                                                    이 기쁨과 감사를 하나님께 올림니다